Quirky ways, ok, have you made a list of what you feel these ways are?
Do you put unreasonable expectations on yourself? Often some people do that because of the way they were raised, some parents expect certain things from their children and they actually think that they are helping their children and they are not, they actually push too hard, and it doesn't mean they don't love you or that you cant love them. Just sometimes they can put their children on these pedestals and not realize that it can lead to unrealistic expectations for the child, which can lead to them being really self critical, or too forceful with themselves, pushing too hard to continue some similiar expectation.
I have actually seen that happen a lot and parents are so unaware they are creating that difficulty in their child.

And you have to determine that for yourself, not for anyone here or anywhere else, but really think about that for yourself. And sometimes the reaction to that parental need for some kind of perfection can also lead to a desire to lash out and do the opposite, and yet at the same time, there is that hidden doubt. But that is something you have to find out, and it has nothing to do with wether or not you think your parents loved you.

As much as I do love my own parents, they definitely made mistakes, not really on purpose but there was a lack.

A wide range of emotions can be in person with a lot of passion, perhaps too much passion that needs to be more structured, that takes time and patience and experience.

The fact that you question yourself, that is pretty normal, all human beings spend a great deal of time trying to understand themselves and as life comes at all of us we are constantly being challenged, and it sure isn't always what we expect. No, life doesn't work that way. And at your age that really is a time when you truely begin to think about the organized structure you have known, like high school, college, grad school and then there is a big vast world. And that is a big change and the average youth has that time period for let me get a little crazy and test the borders a bit, so to speak. And some of that is actually driven by those wonderful hormones that we always seem to forget are there. And never underestimate the effect that hormones have on the human psychie.

And remember that because there will be a time in your life when you begin to level out a bit and you will look back and think to yourself, oh my, what on earth was I thinking? Well, you were not thinking all the time but acting on hormones, those tricky hormones they are.

Be good to yourself, and allow yourself some space for thought and really sit with yourself and recognize that what your feeling is a part of life, different stages of life and even those wonderful hormonal levels that are going to be changing throughout your life.
And by the way try to track your personal cycle and along with that track your emotions, very important.

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