Sorry to hear that Nelliecat. Must feel awful not to be able to open up, especially, as you say, there is so much to come out. Have you always had this problem in therapy? Or with this therapist? Does your T have some kind of rule about making you begin, or something? Doesn't she ask you any questions to get you started? I'd like to understand how/why this issue arises... A lot of people would regard me as 'shy' or 'quiet', but I find it surprisingly easy to talk to T -- just as well for me, because I don't think I could tolerate just sitting there in silence!

It's good that you showed her some stuff that you wrote. I'm not sure what issues you're working on but maybe it would be good to journal things that occur to you during the week, let her read through what you've wrote, then maybe you could have conversations based around it?

I hope you figure it out, and good luck for Thursday. Well done for sticking with it, you'll get there eventually I'm sure