I look into the mirror. I feel kinda scared for some reason. I feel like there's a stranger (me) looking into the mirror. As I hide myself away for too long. I think my hair is fine but I don't like my face. I wish I felt like a woman and not some person who feels bad about themselves. I want to feel "normal" and "human". I have a ugly body. I have a ugly accent. I am negative pretty much. Why does my boyfriend even like me? He calls me sexy and beautiful. But I don't see it. . I'm just ugly. I'm crying right now. I'm such a stupid person for crying. About this s*x thing, I don't even feel normal or feel "sexy". Back to the self esteem issue. I wish I gained my confidence again. I do feel I am slowly gaining my confidence. I used to be very shy but now I'm a little more confident.
I don't know what else to say. I don't have the right words to express myself. I'm so stupid. I'm such an idiot. No one has to reply back. I hate feeling like a stranger or some alien.....