Hi again all!

This is such a great place to get some stuff off the chest! Thank you all...

Just a few things that have been on my mind...

So, I signed up for my next semester classes earlier this week, and I am so freakin nervous! I have 11 credit hours this semester at my University (of Alabama...Roll Tide!), but next semester is my final semester, and in order to graduate, I have to take 16 hours. Five classes, three of which are designated as "writing" courses, and a massive senior project that basically has to sum up what I have learned the past four years (my short attention span and memory issues is making this daunting...just sayin). My thoughts are pinballing all over the place "How am I going to get through this without treatment?" "Can I stay focussed and remember my assignments?" "Am I going to crash and burn?" "Never gonna see my friends" "can I make it?" Ugh, its a nightmare.

My suspected ADHD is still untreated, and money and lack of insurance is making it harder to get in to see a doctor about my issues. The doctor at the Student Health Center basically treated my previous diagnosis of depression, and I told her that I didnt feel depressed, just impulsive and distracted and frazzled. She said that my depression could cause that and put me on prozac...long story short, I had a HARDER time getting work done and paying attention in class. And I was an insomniac. Prozac was like speed for me, keeping me tense, and awake, and insane. Wellbutrin did very little for me either.

After graduation comes grad school, and Im so scared that I will lose it. Grad school + ADHD = Failure! At least, I think it will be if I dont get my brain under control. Im also impulsive and prone to doing randomly stupid things or saying random things at inappropriate times. And I have the hardest time getting to sleep and once I do, its impossible to wake me up. And i have wacky dreams. All in all, Im feeling out of control. But, I have to have an education to succeed in a career, and take care of my family (hubby and myself), and it just feels like alot of scary things. Im so scatterbrained right now. Im trying to type this and I keep stopping to stare at random stuff....I think I may have to just stop ranting now lol.

So how is everyone else doing?