Hi Star Gazer 80 and welcome!
Sorry to not write sooner... working that night, next day head was mud, ran around all day today, blah blah blah. Able to focus enough now. (I hate to admit it, because it's kind of an age thing for me, but I have trouble seeing which line I'm reading especially w/o paragraphs. Please don't take that badly, I have to remind myself constantly, but especially if I get manic-y.) Ok. So. Anyway! I digress...
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Originally Posted by Star Gazer 80
...and can't wait to coach next season and have a bunch of 4 and 5 year old doing everything I tell them to. ...
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Heheh. Had to giggle a bit here. My son's 19 now, but IIRC, he had no more interest in doing everything I told him to
then either....
Referencing the rest of your post, he sounds like a real sweetie-pie.
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Originally Posted by Star Gazer 80
...I just all of a sudden had this need to clean I had to have everything looking perfect It had to be in the right spot when I got no help or support from my husband I started to throw things away I even pushed my steam cleaner down the basemant stepst...
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I can relate to this... Was with my ex for 25(!) years, and there was a point when he would recognize when I was in a manic-y cleaning frenzy and start doing some, just to look busy to keep me from launching.
Totally get the cleaning now and everything at once thing...
Sorry not to have caught this part in the quote gathering thing, because it's really important:
"All the while I'm spirling out of controll the last few days I keep telling myself "get it together" "you need to go see a dr" "you need to go back on meds" "This is not you you need help" but I just can't say it out loud..."
Well, it's almost like saying it out loud to be able to write it here on PC, and you should give yourself credit for that. You know. You know you know. Please
do go see a professional and get back on meds. I'm not one to tell people what to do, but in this case, it's something you already know, and I'm simply agreeing that it sounds like it would be in your best interest. I recently had a med adjustment that is doing a world of good, so I'd sure love to see you be able to get to a better place too...
