Anika, thank you so much for your kind, morale-boosting words. The idea that someone thinks I am strong has really gotten me through both the awful night when I posted this and the next few days. Depression makes us feel so weak, so helpless, and that for me leads to scary thoughts. So really, thank you.

And if anyone is to be admired, I think that it's you. Through your posts I've gotten a sense of who you are and all that you've battled, and you really are an inspiration. And you always start such wonderful, encouraging threads expressing your love for all the people here on the bipolar forum, which we all appreciate!