Hi Venus,

I don't think you're whining. I think these are normal existential questions we all go through at times. Wondering what our purpose here in this life is, wondering if it's all worth it, searching for meaning. Part of this is your nature and I think part of it may be some depression setting in, clouding your perspective.

What are you doing to nurture yourself right now? I know you have chosen not to take medication, but what other methods are you using to help your mind stay in balance? Can you make some adjustments there? Maybe add some light therapy? Once winter begins to set in, our little bipolar pineal glands go a bit haywire and we need the extra light. Even if you don't think it will help, try it. You may be pleasantly surprised.

I know the world seems like it's in a constant state of turmoil, and focusing on that would bring anybody to tears. But know that people can make a difference. Dictators and Communist walls can be brought down, systems can change. I think global social change is more of a reality now than it has ever been, and the common people's voices are being heard. You are part of that global voice, probably moreso than many of us. Keep plugging on. I think you are more of an agent of change than you may realize. You inspire others to care, and that brings strength in numbers. And while someday you may be able to create change in a more formal setting, know that your actions now do matter.