Not really, no. I still get extremely furious about anything involving my S.O. and any female. Even a "Like it" on his FB wall by a woman makes me see red, so you can imagine how I get when it's an actual post, a text message or (God help) a photo. He's always saying that there's nothing he's hiding and he only loves ME and that he's very attracted to me physically and mentally.

I've been talking about this with my therapist, but it's like I still have this voice in my head that screams "HE'S MINE AND NOBODY BUT ME HAS THE RIGHT TO TALK TO, TOUCH OR EVEN LOOK AT HIM!". And I'm always thinking that he'll eventually leave me for someone else.

I think it's hard not only on me but on him as well. That's why it comes up in therapy. Part of me wants to be in a healthy relationship with a reasonable amount of jealousy. I know it's all about self-esteem (which I have very little) and trust (unfortunately TRUST NO ONE has been my motto for way to long).

It's definitely something to really work on. It takes time.