This is what I want to say to T friday but want to make sure it makes sense. Feedback please.

Dear T,

Ok I started to realize depression might be lurking about two and a half weeks ago. This was just before my sinuses went crazy for a couple of days. The first sign was sleep...it was quickly inching its way up to 16 hours and stayed there for about a week. Over the next couple days it dropped to about 12 hours and has stayed there for a couple of days. Then in the last week my appetite dropped off...not totally gone but close.

Events during this time: chicago to see nephew, frustrating job search, car died, celebrated my friend Lauries 20 year anniversary and at the meeting started to realize I had a lot of self-hatred and started to seriously think maybe that is contributing.

I know we've talked some how critical I am of myself and how nothing I do is ever good enough for me. I used to think it was some kind of perfectionism thing going on but it just doesn't fit with the way my life has turned out. Now I am sure it is that I just hate myself and the criticism just keeps it going which leads to giving up at "critical" times and then the depression.

I am not even sure I am making any sense. I hope this is something to start with for now.