Maybe. And maybe not. Everyone is different, so it's hard (impossible, really) to predict. Your fear is certainly understandable given the situation that you witnessed. Thing is, it's not universal. For instance, if it'd been me you'd seen, it would have been the exact opposite. I went from being extreme to being pretty "normal". Not boring normal mind you! Kooky personality and creativity totally intact (I mention those because they are often given as a med fear as well. Again, not universal, so I feel the need to stand up and be counted. Meds did not take those things away from me.)

Not saying whether you should or shouldn't. It's your choice. Just wanted to share my experience for your consideration.

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Mr. Robot

Makes me sick to the heart, Oh I feel so tired. And the way the rain comes down hard, that's how I feel inside.

--The Cure