Hi Estee,
Sounds like you are having a rough time just now. Maybe it feels like it will never go away.
I've been in that place. I thought it was hopeless.
I believe that,slowly but surely, we can get better at walking through the fear. Some famous person said, "When we are going through hell, the best thing to do is to keep walking."
I know this advice isn't a cure, but it has helped me, and I was a bad case.
Good thoughts, M