Sometime I wonder if this is why I am so demanding of myself. I have a hard time accepting my failures and my mistakes. And when this happens I am ashame of myself and I treat myself very badly.

Yup. That's exactly why.

That negative "voice" is easier to hear sometimes than to fight it off. And although we despise "the voice" and wish it would go away, it's familiar.

Like when a song that you can't stand gets stuck in your head. After awhile, you sing along anyway. You know all the words.

Changing the station is the goal.

Petunia