I am so sorry you're confused.

I think you misread my post. I wasn't trying to tell you not to take medication. I was trying to gently tell you that maybe you should give it a try - at least for a while. It has helped my son.

I wish I had been clearer. I was only trying to say that using medication is not an admission of illness. It's just a tool to help you cope.

Please, please do not take your knife out with you. I care about you and want you to be safe. There's a risk that you won't be safe if you go out tomorrow with the knife.