I met w/ my therapist for the first time since I wrote what's above and we talked about feeling guilty about her helping me (I have issues of trust, fear of abandonment and pushing people away because I can sometimes think that I'm "a bad person"). I said bluntly, "What I should say to myself is, 'She offered to do this, so it's her responsibility to talk to me about it if she's no longer OK w/ it or deal with her own feelings if she's not." She laughed and said--"Exactly!"

So bubsmiley--if your therapist has said that it's OK to contact him/her for help, then go for it!