My anxiety causes my blood pressure to skyrocket, but it really only happens when I'm nervous..especially during doctor visits. My GP prescribes BP medications for this because it's obviously high every time I see her. When I go home it returns to normal - literally 120/80. Shouldn't I be taking an anti-anxiety instead? It's not high all the time, only when I'm nervous.

Today we had a blood drive at school. I'd been looking forward to donating ever since I signed up two weeks ago. When the nurse took my BP, it was around 145/112, so I couldn't donate After I left the room, I went to a hallway that nobody was in since we were in the middle of class during my appointment time. There's an entrance to a conference room that the teachers never use that has a wall on either side of it. I sat down here and tried to keep from crying. I don't know why it made me so sad...I guess I wanted to be part of something, and seeing kids with bandages on their arms all day while knowing that I would soon be the same made me feel part of something. The nurse told me that I could try again next year. I wanted to say Don't you get it, it's not going to get better. I hate myself for this because it's my own fat fault for not being able to do something I wanted to do. It's not going to get better because my anxiety is never going to go away. At least that's how it feels.

Do you think I should be taking an anti anxiety-instead?