(((onlymedid))) I don't think I've ever woken up crying... That sounds wretched!

I hope you're doing what everyone is going to suggest (talking to the docs, taking your meds, etc...) but even when you're doing everything "right" it can still all go wrong.

Even though you feel bad, it's really great that you made the effort to get out of the house. Keep trying, because eventually it might make you feel better. And if nothing else, you won't feel bad for staying indoors all the time. Spending time outdoors nearly always makes me feel a little better.