I feel like i cant trust nobody. I have no family around me, no friends, and being gay in a small boxy thinking town. Everybody makes fun of me. I am middle age 41, and i thought these feelings would dissapear with maturity, but its just getting worse. The only family i have are my five beautiful cats, their age ranges from 9 to 7 years old, and people make fun of me persecute me, just because me and my cats. I wish i could move, but it just seems impossible. It feels like the path of my life is full of blockages and hateful people that are there just to remind me that i dont belong and that im supposed to stay hiding in darkness. I am christian but open to hear what others believe on. I could be the most caring and trusting friend; but how could i when the chance is not given.? I am contantly tired, weary, sad, wanting to move to a better place. I feel trapped, and cant go far because gas is so expensive i am always thinking what can i do in order to make people happy and so they will like me. I take prescription from my mental health doctor, and i run between 3 to 5 miles away, but nothing seems to work...what can i do?