Don't you dare feel guilty. You are an example of strength and perseverance. You work hard at trying to be well. You're having a hard time lately, but you're still going to Judo and dinner and stores and trying to keep life as normal as possible. Would you feel guilty or lazy for not being able to climb a flight of stairs if you had a broken leg? Of course not. Cut yourself some slack. You're not feeling well. It's okay to not be able to do it all.