Yea I do have a therapist at the moment. I mean honestly, i've given up on working with my anxiety really, because I'm not sure, but I feel like everything that makes me not function well stemmed from my childhood. Just like an early age thing. Even at this age, because I had some traumatic things going on a few months ago that has changed my view of people and life for the rest of my life.

But, im not sure what I would say to someone with a similar experience. I've come across people with one or two experiences that I share, I rarely, if ever say anything. I'm speaking in real life, because i've shared here and there on this forum for example. But I have no useful advice to give, because i'm not on a committed path to helping myself. Im apathetic towards most of everything and everyone. I've been in 7 hospitals and had many therapists/psychiatrists. I'm on the end of the mental health system spectrum where I've been screwed around nearly 100%. I've havent entirely given up. I don't have hope anymore, but I can't give up for good until I get answers to things that keep hitting my curiosity about myself.