There's no point of me wasting my breathe and energy just to try and get somewhere. I am just worried because the lady hasn't phoned me back and I sent her email but hopefully she will reply. I think myself, what's the point of being here? If I can't get anywhere in life. I am always rejected and I don't have good skills. Why do others have the opportunity but not me? What have I done to be rejected? I am sorry I feel like this but I feel low at the moment. Everyone is doing great.... A good job or whatever. But I am just a piece of crap wiped away from the slate and thrown in the bin. A couple of times in my head, I felt like I should just......... I am ungrateful yes, I am a idiot, yes, I am a person who is stupid, yes. Life wasn't for me. Neither was getting a job or studying. I like thinking of leaving.............. Gosh, I don't like these thoughts.