I know how you feel! But if things were easy, I doubt we would ever learn anything from life. I think that is why some things come harder for some people. It's a way to help us learn and mature into a better person. The hardships suck and can get overwhelming, but also think of how much you are gaining. Giving up will get you nothing. Trying again and again will get tiring, but I guarantee you will get somewhere eventually. It may not be exactly where you want to be, but it is a step closer. I once thought I could never do the job that I am doing today because of my social anxiety. I'm not exactly where I want to be but I've improved so much over the years and I still can't believe those knuckleheads gave me a chance at a job! But it's getting better, and I'm happy for that. Of course, life couldn't let me breathe for too long and now I'm dealing with new challenges. It's like, "What the eff?!" The important part is I know time, patience, and perseverance will get me through again! And I know it can for you too!