DH is losing his job due to medical issues. Which is "funny", because he had those issues when they hired him. Degenerative disc disease and he's on Prozac for mild PTSD (retired Army). Now they're saying he can't deploy because of this, he was working overseas as a contractor.

We have no savings. Our plan was to have him over there for at least three years, year one: pay down our debt, year two and three: build up a nice savings account. Now we're screwed.

We still have money coming in once a month, from his retirement pay and disability pay from the Army, but that's not enough to cover all the bills. We can pay the mortgage, get groceries and maybe pay the utilities, but that's about it.

I am working really hard not to freak out right now. My older son's birthday is coming up, christmas is coming up, what are we going to do?

I can't work because of the depression, but the disability people don't see it that way. Besides, with two kids, one in school, I could only work part time, and most if not all of my paycheck would go to childcare. I wouldn't make much, I haven't worked in 9 years. But it doesn't matter, I can't anyway because of the depression. And there's no way I could hold two or three jobs.

What do we do now? DH is 42 years old, how is going to find a new, somewhat good paying job??? And how in the world am I going to get through this without freaking out and having a complete meltdown??