It wasn't any fault of yours. The board is here for posting things when sometimes we have no other person to speak with. Don't hold back in fear of triggering someone. If you put a trigger icon on the post then you've done your job.

I am glad to be home. I was thinking today that although the bad thoughts are gone I have gone right back to the way I was living before. I don't want to make the excuse that I am still recovering, although I am. I want to change things for the better. It is time for some real deep work in therapy so that I can have a better life. It seems like such a distant thing with all my fears and hang-ups. But it must be possible.