(((dejavu)))

That sounds really scary - it's the last thing I would want to hear too!

But anything that's causing this much stress is probably something that needs to be worked out. And it sounds like your T is trying to look out for you, too, so that's good, even if it's really scary. Sometimes other people are better at evaluating how we're doing than we are. I hope you can trust your T to keep your best interests in mind.

We're all rooting for you!