I'm not bitter about any of this, but for the purpose of information, let's get the basic facts out of the way: I was raised in an overprotective home without a lot of advantages, I have only had one date in my entire life, I've never had a girlfriend, and I've been repeatedly rejected by members of the opposite sex on the few occasions I have approached.
I also know I have some trust issues that I'm struggling to overcome because I was molested at a very young age by a family member, and I know this has had a direct impact on my ability to pursue relationships.
My score on the Romance Attachment Quiz is 100 Relationship Avoidance, 73 Relationship Anxiety. I've often found myself a scenario where I am happily married for years, only to discovered that my spouse has betrayed my trust by having an affair.
Over time, I've found myself less and less enthralled by and less and less trusting of the opposite sex, and I'm finding very little motivation and courage to approach members of the opposite sex even though I'm a bit of a hopeless romantic, and have always dreamed of marriage and children. But as time goes on, I just wonder if I'll ever be able to connect to a member of the opposite sex in a way that is both trusting and romantic.
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