For the past severeal months i have been feeling like crap. i have had thoughts of si and i hate life. i want so much fo it to end. I am so afraid though that i kill my self that my friend will flip. i dont know what to do.... i hate the thoughts and when i tell people about them they dont believe me. even though i have had 2 attempts in the past 3 months.i went to a therapist for it and they put me on a bunch of meds that buged me out so i freaked and stopped going. plus i couldn't even drive to go there. i just want to give up. my relationship is going to hell i dont even know if iwant a realtionship with him even though i care about him. plus i am starting school in the fall at a new college because i had problems with the old one. if i move i might end up in therapy because the theapist out here suck big time. I just want everything to end ...GOD please help.