I think I may be going through a mixed episode, but am not sure. I am very irritable, agitated, anxious, and yet I am tired, have that feeling like I could cry at the drop of a pin. I feel wound up, like I can't sit still, yet I feel like I don't want to leave my apartment. I feel like I could cry, but I can't. I want to scream because I feel like I am moving in fast forward, but not going anywhere. The smallest things get me fired up, I feel it inside, but don't show it. I don't know if that makes any sense, but that's the best I can describe it...when I talk either i am talking so fast people can't understand me, or am talking slow and forget my train of thought...i kind of feel stupid, i keep forgetting everything, and when people talk to me, i stare at them, but the words seem to go through me, I can't concentrate on anything they are saying, just nod my head, chuckle here or there so they think i am listening, i repeat myself, because i forgot I told somebody that already....i feel like a complete idiot right now.....