((((((((((((( KUREHA )))))))))))))))

I just wanted you to know that I'm reading and supporting you as best I can. I'm so glad to hear that you are taking your meds again. Costello is right, please make sure to take them as prescribed and let them work for you. I know they can taste nasty, but that's a small price to pay for feeling better and more calm and to not have those intrusive thoughts running around in your head all the time.

KUREHA, I know you have been researching a lot lately to find information to back up your thoughts. I want to know if you have done any research that would back up the ideas that you are having intrusive thoughts and what you can do to help yourself minimize them. I know there are posts in this forum from Spiritual_Emergency that have been helpful to you in the past. Can you do a search in the forum for their posts/threads and try reading them again? You may be able to get some helpful ideas on how to handle what you are going through right now. It sounds to me like you are probably very anxious and hyper-vigilant and that can take a lot out of you physically and mentally.

I also want to touch on your compassionate side KUREHA. I know that you do not want to hurt anyone who is innocent. When we are hyper-vigilant and anxious, it's easy to misread people and I hope that you don't misread an innocent for a sleeper cell. If that happened and you hurt them in some way, I would imagine you would feel horrible about that, not to mention you could be put in jail or hospital for a very very long time. I know you don't want that for yourself and neither do any of us here at PC. I know you care about people, you have shown that to me!

Good for you for taking your meds again!! I'm very proud of you for deciding to do that. KUREHA, you are a very good person and I pray that you can feel better very very soon. Please take good care of yourself okay?

Safe and Gentle
sabby