I spent seven years seeking stabilization through alternative medicine using crystals, hypnotherapy, energy medicine, hands on healing techniques. I trained under a master and became a hands on healer discoving i had quite a talent and took part in some beautiful things working to help others heal that i could only describe as miraculous. wonderful success stories. I spent a lot of money in my quest for balance in my life. I never felt so alive than when i was doing energy work, that connection to the universe so powerful. my rapid thoughts made meditation impossible, but my dissociative skills were an asset in working with others. It was all so wonderful and facinating.

Unfortunately, when it came to my own mental health and stopping the rapid cycling that plagued my life things only became worse. random crystals, musical tones would bring up feelings of terror. the guided imagery and soul retrievals brought back shards of unidentifiable fear. all i did in that time was surface a bunch of trauma for myself.

sorry for going off on that tangent there. its just that i invested so much in believing alternative sources could be the answer i had to share my story. so crystals themselves do carry energy that focuses on certain things, but on their own, it really isnt enough to cure or significant address an ailment.