Thanks guys. You know, I was feeling really sad yesterday and several days before that. It's always there to some degree, the sadness. Tonight it's better, but it's always below the surface. I don't know why I started to do that again yesterday - I literally just picked it up and did it, then put it down and left the bathroom. Maybe this is due to the sad feelings - I guess it's possible.

I see T Monday. I'll keep you updated. Thanks again, so much Whenever I make posts like this, in the back of my mind I always worry if they sound like a pathetic cry for attention..