I've gone through quite lengthy recovery process from an eating disorder, and am still unable to fully shake issues with eating (i don't think i ever will) - People's comments about weight, ANYONE's weight still get me a bit uncomfortable and anxious because I immediately attach far to much importance to those comments, and even though i KNOW i'm doing this I still get in a mess. I too can't see myself correctly. I was much worse when I was severely underweight because I didn't see a problem with my weight then, but now that i'm physically healthier I really , really can't tell what I look like. I feel for you and I know what you're going through is tough. Just remember the progress you've made and try and be aware of the processes your mind goes through ...your brain and your emotions will try and trip you up and it helps to be able t tell yourself its not your fault that that's happening. DONT pursue your eating disorder actively. I know its so so hard to want to do so when you can't tell what you look like. Don't listen to other people's comments at all if that's what you have to do. Just put them down as irrelevant, because they are really. You being okay in your head is more important than agonizing over thing people have said which they themselves proabbly don't think twice about. take care of yourself.