I think most of us test our T's commitment to us in one way or another. For me it's part of the trust issue. I come across initially as totally uncooperative & several Ts have bailed at that point. Fine with me. Therapy's hard work, & I want to know that my T's going to work as hard as I am.

So that's me. Don't know whether that clicks for you, but i hope things work out.