Don't feel bad if you don't get many replys to this post. alot of people on line have a hard time when it comes to active suicidal phase type posts. Basically now it the time that you need your treatment professionals locally. on line all we can do is say we have been there and it does get better and how we handle the situations. But that active suicidal phases need the help of therapists, psychiatrists, psychologists, family physicians, ER and possible inpatient care. please contact your treatemtn professional so that you will feel better.

How I handle it when I get like this - writing, artwork, relaxation techniques, call my therapist, call my family physician,

Take care.