Hold on there sky

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You are human. unfortunately the suffering is proof of that. you "say" and "try" because you are grasping for humanness around you, with hope that you can find a better existence for yourself in this world. it is unfortunate if you can not find any around right now. much of the time i experience the same thing. no one should have to suffer the things you have. that is, in some ways, the worst part of being human. suffering along with happiness is part of being human. when the suffering grows out of proportion and the happiness fades away it is understandably... frustrating (more than frustrating, I can't think of an appropriate word right now)

i was just reading something new with regard to string theory, that maybe the 8 or 10 dimensions that are invisible to us are not curled up into tight, tiny knots, but are instead full fledged dimensions, maybe curved into huge loops or possibly even straight and infinite like the 4 dimensions we know. the reason we don't see them is that the strings that make up our matter and energy are attached to a "brane" where they move around but are "Stuck" to only slide around with freedom in the dimensions we know. Other particles and forms of energy, possibly gravitons, are able to move freely of the brane and move in all the available dimensions. Maybe someday there will be a way for our minds to exploit this and free ourselves in some way from our suffering bodies. Mabye we already can but are just unfamiliar with the experience as of yet.

Just trying to give you some other stuff to think about, because I, like many others here, do care and want you to try to hang on and hope things will get better with some better experiences for you.

good luck sky

-- The world is what we make of it --
-- Dave
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