The idea that it would always be there would weigh more heavily on me, in think, than the pain itself. What a horrible prospect!
Like the others, I am so sorry. For an on-the-go person like you, slowing down will be perhaps the greatest challenge youve had.

The pain will have to serve as your instructor. As you add an event to your calendar, you will have to stop, imagine what the event will entail for you, put in context of what else you did that day and the day before as well as what's on tap for the days coming up. Only then can you firmly commit to something. Or--possibly--send your regrets.

Prayers & best thoughts .