Odoyle-

Yes you're right... sigh....
It brought back alot of emotions and memories when he would talk about wanting to quit, walk out of his work, being fired etc....

I went through so much heartache and burden with my exbf and I don't have it in me anymore to go through that. When I realized that the heartache were still there and realized that I havent yet moved on from the heartache and the hurt felt so raw still I knew then that I'm not ready for a new relationship.

My guard is up bc I can't go through it again. How I saw myself back then when I was in that last relationship was: a dying tree. I held the relationship up, I kept strong for the both of us but I was being drained of my energy and I was slowing wilting away.

Thank you Odoyle for noticing my other post I appreciate that. For awhile there I wasn't getting any help from anyone and I felt so alone.