yesterday I was extremely anxious and felt suicidal so I took lorazapam and that calmed me down. I am unsure if I should go into the hospital or not. It's like one minute I am okay and the next moment I feel really bad. I was going to go in last nite after the morning I had yesterday but I backed out. My moods are unpredictable right now and that is what I am worried about. I am with my sisters and my mom and away from my usual environment, so I wonder if that has anything to do with how I am feeling at the moment. I'm nervous to go into the hospital. I worry about not getting on the right meds and I am nervous that when I am in there I will feel okay and then when I come out I will feel bad again. I am just so unsure. I just dont want to get impulsive in a down moment. Right now I dont want to kill myself so I am thinking I should just wait until my pdoc appt on wed. What to do, what to do? My mom is worried that when I go home I am going to feel bad again. Am I just cycling like crazy or what?!