This post is irrationally depressing, so don't read it if you think it may depress you. Sorry.


I know it's irrational but I worry that my T will die before I finish therapy with her. Does anyone else worry about that? It's especially worse when there is somthing really important that I want to discuss in the session, like right now.

She's not sick, and she's a lot younger than I am. It's irrational. I try not to think about it but it's there, worrying me. She knows I worry about her dying and she tries to reassure me, but no one can predict the future.

I worry about my family too, but I think I worry about my T more. For the first time I have someone to tell EVERYTHING to, and I don't want to lose her and that opportunity.

My T wants to talk about how, when I feel good, I expect something to go wrong. It's related to the fear of her dying, but not exactly.

I can't think about my upcoming session too much because if it doesn't happen, I'll be very sad. I didn't feel this way the week before last but those feelings didn't last.

I'm trying to accept these feelings and just go on with my life. It's hard, though, when I keep thinking that bad news, about anything, can come at any time in life! We live in troubled times, and I don't feel safe.