Well I recently made some changes with my work. I cut way back on hours and have not been too work since last week. I have gone through so many phases with my career. Sometimes I am so good at what I do and then something happens. I doubt what I am doing because I am not always sure of myself. My career has been so important to me in my adult life but I think I need to let it go at least till things get better. Taking care of myself I am not able too do too my full ability so how can I really care for others. I am working all weekend starting today and it terrifies me. It terrifies me to even leave the house with my blackouts, which happen so much when I drive and I have too do alot of driving. Especially at night it seems like he takes over. I see a new pdoc next week but it seems so far away and I have very little support. I have such a fear of driving because it isn't me. I don't worry about myself I am worried about hurting someone else. I just wish they would listen too me.
Sorry about the rant but I just have to vent. If it is not my journal it is all of you.
HUGS
Cher