((((((rainbow))))))

Do you think this is related to your mom dying before you were ready?

I never really thought very much about people dying until my dad died. I was 34 and it was really unexpected - he was only 56. I used to worry a lot about my T getting really sick and dying, and I think it was because...it had HAPPENED. I knew it was possible! I mean, intellectually, I know it's possible anytime, but since I experienced it, it just felt so REAL.

I don't know why the fear has subsided, but it has. Just like so many other things in therapy, talking and talking about it helped. And mindfulness has helped a lot...I try to focus on what's right in front of me, instead of on any fears about the future that pop into my head, and that calms things down.

Thinking of you, (((((rainbow)))))