Songbird, please do not feel ashamed. I have SI'd off and on for 30 years. It took me so long to tell a therapist about it because it became a part of me I did not want too lose. Your therapist sounds wonderful since he seems to have some understanding on it which can make all the difference in the world. You took a huge step in the right direction to not only admit too your T but to yourself this is going on. I just want you too know you are not alone.
You are strong (((((((((((Songbird)))))))))))))))
Cher