I've been thinking about this A LOT (read: agonizing) about how I terminated...and I don't think I want to leave T...no other T will be able to pray with me the way he does-or hug me...if I do psychodynamic with pdoc (who I don't even know if I will like yet) that will definitely not be happening-or any type of self-disclosure...which I like...I think I want to go back...I'm just scared he won't have me back-there must be a limit to how many times a T can handle this "I'm quitting...no I'm not...I hate you-I love you" crap...I know I'm sick of me...he must be too!!