Songbird,
I've been getting to know you from other areas where you have posted too. It is scary admitting things that maybe you would rather were not true, but I agree that it is best to deal with it. We won't judge you here, as we know what it is like.
I hope that you can feel safe here.
Rap
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“We should always pray for help, but we should always listen for inspiration and impression to proceed in ways different from those we may have thought of.”
– John H. Groberg