I totally hear you on this. We worry so much about our T dying too. To a ridiculous amount. We have had so many untimely deaths, and been abandoned by people so many times, that we're just convinced something will happen to our T, too. If we don't hear from her for a few days (she's still out of the country, but it happened when she was right across town too) then we start to panic that she died in a car accident (have lost many friends and family to that.) I'm also really afraid of losing my mom,dad,sister, niece, nephew, and husband, so it may be related.