Thanks guys - sorry I couldn't respond earlier. I don't have internet access during the day and I screwed up my internet access at home. Fixed now, and today is a holiday.

He seems to be doing ok. He's been more productive than I've EVER seen him (could be the strattera?) and has been hard at work building a new fence for us. However, he hasn't filed for unemployment or to my knowledge, looked for a new job or worked on his business plan this week. So far, I haven't said a word about it but internally, it's chewing me up. I made a decision this week to go back onto meds so that I don't stress BOTH of us out. Obviously, the pregnancy thing isn't a good idea at this time with him out of a job, but just as a precaution, I'm starting on Welbutrin rather than Lexapro (Welbutrin is classed as "safer" than Lexapro for pregnancy). I didn't want to take anything but I just don't know if I can handle this on my own right now. The timing is awful.

I can understand if my H just wasn't the ideal employee for his boss's shop. That's ok - not everyone works out. But what PISSES me off is that at least as much as I've heard, my H never got any feedback indicating that he was in poor standing. Is this really about the schedule change? I mean, wouldn't any employer who valued his employee try to accomodate personal schedules rather than fire someone that they felt did a good job? What is going on?

And what's worse is that in the almost 2 years that my H has been working there, he hasn't done anything to make himself more marketable. He's still in the same boat he was in while he was depressed and anxious because he didn't have any marketable skills. I've been nervous about that for the past 2 years, trying to encourage him to take some college classes or join some professional organizations to network, but he hasn't and now he's 2 years older but no more marketable than before. He knows it and that's why he was depressed in the first place... and I was so hoping that he would make sure that he wasn't going to be in that position again and now here he is.

See why I need something for anxiety? If I voiced even 1/8 of what I was thinking to him, I would drive him to drink