Sounds like part of you is imaging the worse case scenario and for me this is what I do when my anxiety starts to take a hold on me.

Of course people do die, no-one lives forever - and the ability for us to deal with bereavement must be connected to how confident we are that we can deal with that loss, beyond normal grief / sadness.

As many of us rely so much on our T's to get through life, particularly if we are working hard on difficult issues, I think it therefore makes real sense that we worry about T not being there anymore.

I worry im a different way, of T rejecting me, but I think that is still connected to a fear of loss.

I don't really have any solutions, other than to keep plodding along, taking to T and trying to build faith in our own abilities.

Take care rainbow8 - Soup