Greetings good people,
I have a few questions in my mind and thought this forum would be a good venue for me to ask.

First of all, can you have SI and not be depressed?
What is the difference between depressive thoughts and true depression?

I find if I am really engaged at work or with other people, I can be fine, but if I am not really involved, I have been thinking SI alot. Or just negative and hopeless. Yet, When I get to work, I get into it and so Im not having those other thoughts. So can I just not be depressed, just have sucky thinking? Sometimes, can change my thoughts around to being more positive. So then I think I must not really be depressed. Maybe I need to be more focused on gratitude, helping others, those kinds of things.

I will say thought that when the SI thinking is there, its pretty powerful. I don't have alot of hope feelings and thoughts are pretty gruesome and grafic. Anyway, I'm not trying to cause alarm or anything. I am just asking questions and noting how my thinking has been. I am not threatening anything, just to let you guys know.
Thank you for your thoughts/