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Originally Posted by Rose76
For me, the ability to "do well" now and then does not seem to lessen the pain of having this issue. There is still the insecurity of never knowing when it won't go well. I understand how much anxiety this causes. Well, I know - for me - it can even give a sense of temporary false confidence that gets shattered, and then the pain is back worse.
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This is me to a "T". That "temporary false confidence that gets shattered and then the pain comes back worse" is why I avoid social situations. I want to keep the confidence. And going to social functions or even out to lunch with a few people poses the risk of showing me that I really am what I thought I was.
Actually, I'm sure we're harder on ourselves than others are on us. Our focus is so much on ourselves and our self-consciousness that we probably seem worse to ourselves than we seem to others. If only that helped.
Which it doesn't.