i have to agree with Inedible, we are all raised in a bigoted society , and when i got a psych diagnosis/disability, i hated it just as much as any one ever could, it was horrible, despicable, and worse, it had me~. it took a long time to accept that i was injured/damaged and to grieve, and move on. but i will say, it is worth all the pain, to get past that. best wishes, Gus