Just feeling really alone and lonely again today. Last night and this morning were bad.
Flashbacks and old stuff coming up, desperately needing to talk to T... and just not having her here... really tough. We did get two emails from her this morning which was nice and she said some kind things. But she still didn't say anything about coming home. We desperately need to not be trying to do therapy over the phone anymore, it isn't really therapy, its just catching up over "what did you do this week?" type of thing-- which is better than nothing of course!! But its so hard to hold all this stuff in. We need her to come home so b ad.